Backcountry Provision

Back Prov

We were well above the tree line and I could feel my steps becoming heavy, as if I was trudging through cement. My husband several feet ahead of me felt like a million miles away as we slowly snaked up the side of a mountain. The cold bitter wind had chilled me to the core earlier on our trek but I was thankful to be hidden from it for now behind this hill.

Jason and I love to backpack through the Colorado backcountry and we try to make several trips a year if we can. This particular trip we had decided to do a loop through Indian Peaks wilderness that lead us right over the ridge that neighbors Sawtooth Mountain.

As we neared closer to the ridge the wind began to whip with a greater force. I pulled the hood of my jacket around my face hoping for some refuge. It took me back to the time I was about 5 or 6 years-old walking to school in the winter against the wind and snow in good ol’ windy Wyoming. I remember being able to lean against the wind with all my weight and still be held up by it, as if it were a physical wall.

The moment I stepped on that ridge I was met with such a force that it nearly knocked me backwards. I dropped to my knees. Jason squatted next to me and hollered instructions like “keep your feet wide,” and “drop your head and shoulder to cut through the gusts.” I attempted to take his advice, but ended up crawling over the ridge on my hands and knees. “One wrong move and I could die” I remember thinking, “I could blow right off this mountain.”

After we came down from the peak and began our descent I remember turning my head back over my shoulder and just being in awe of what I had just come over. I love backpacking, but sometimes I can’t believe some of the places I end up going.

I feel as though sometimes our life can be a lot like that. We end up going places that leave us feeling like we might die if we make one wrong move, or worse we’ll get stuck there forever. Sometimes those places make us hit our knees, and we may end up having to crawl just to get through.  And as we continue on we might even look back and be in awe of what we just survived.

What I’ve recently discovered within my own life is that sometimes God doesn’t want us to walk, crawl or wrestle our way through such seasons. Sometimes He wants us to sit through them. Now I certainly do not mean that He wants us to sit on the couch, numb ourselves, and ignore our circumstances.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your soul. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Matthew 11: 28 NIV

What I mean is that once we are believers in Christ we have his life and our spirits are renewed and filled with the Holy Spirit. When we walk and journey through the hard parts of life we are to let Christs’ life work in and through us. Not roll up our sleeves and try harder. One verse that hits this home for me is when Paul is writing his letter to Christians in Ephesians.

And God raised (past tense) us up with Christ and seated us (past tense) with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus.

Ephesians 2:6

So not only does the Holy Spirit reside in our hearts but we are seated IN Jesus IN heaven, and it turns out it’s already happened, this isn’t talking about going to heaven in the future. (Mind blown.) The point is, Paul is instructing us to know and believe that Christ has us seated. When you are participating in sitting you are relying on that thing of which you are sitting on.

We are seated in Jesus. Which means that we are called to be fully reliant on Christ Jesus to do the heavy lifting, and the navigating. In times of doubt or if we are not sure how he is going to pull it off, we can have confidence that he will and we can rely on his ability to do so.

We need to put away our belief that we must be self reliant and instead find rest in him. It’s much like when Pastor Jim says, “If we could fix it ourselves we already would have.” No matter what season of life you are journeying through, whether that be a windy mountain ridge or a peaceful valley, resting in Jesus only means a richer life.

Do you find it difficult to rest and be fully reliant on God? Why?

What are some things that you have learned and are reliant on in order to get life to do what you want it to do?  Are you willing to surrender these to Jesus?



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